dear universe,

...please take away these boys and give me a man.



i need someone to talk to. and i mean, talk, to. i'd like to hold real conversations about more than one topic. i want to be able to talk about literature, politics, arts, music, science, environmentalism, current events. i want to use my vocabulary without being laughed at. i want to learn new words and ideas. i want to be surprised by his opinions or provoked to thought by them.

i need someone to laugh with. i need a good combination of stupid, silly humor and articulate, witty humor. i need to be able to act my crazy normal self when i'm stressed or tired without getting a strange look. i want someone to join in and laugh at me or be stupid right along with me. but i need someone who can realize when that humor is necessary and when it's not. and i want someone to hold their own in a sarcastic, overblown battle of witticisms. someone who i can share that secret language with, when people look at us and say to each other, "wow, they really get each other."

i need someone to love me. deeply. for everything i am. not just for the person they think i am. or for the person i was when i met them. i want someone to see me, and see all of me. the writer, the poet, the musician, the painter, the sculptor, the illustrator, the photographer, the overall artist, the athlete, the problem solver, the leader, the intellectual, the original, the creative, the sensitive, the sensual, the joker, the light-heart, the inquisitive, the educator, the lifetime student, the daring, the reserved me.

i need someone to grow with. i need a relationship that will develop and change through time. not just the first week. not the first month. not the first year. i want to be with someone who is willing to try new things with me, and who is open to changing it up once in a while. i need someone who wants to learn, and grow, and change with me. i want someone who loves life and its process of development as much as i do.

i need someone who isn't afraid to work for what he wants. who isn't afraid to work. who works hard because it's in his DNA, because he's motivated, he's inspired, and he wants to make a difference. i want to be able to look at him and be proud of what he's accomplished in his lifetime. i want to be supportive of what he's doing now. i want his work to inspire me, and mine him,

i want someone who treats me like gold. not because he think it's what i want, but because it's what he wants. i want to be treated well out of love. and i want someone who doesn't expect it when i put him on a pedestal and treat him like royalty. i want to see that surprise. i want to see that feeling of self-worth. i want to see his confidence grow. and i want to see our love grow.



i know i ask for a lot...
but if there are so many fish in the sea,
why doesn't someone come to me?