endorphins.

mistakes are human nature. i think that's well known.
but what of bad choices? is that because i'm human?
or because i'm what some would call young and without experience?
(because i would beg to differ on that one.)
or is it because i am, simply, me?

i wonder if it's chemical. because i only make these choices in my lowest times.
i wonder if it's emotional. because that's usually the trigger.
i wonder if it's what i believe- at that point- to be logical.
i wonder if it's a combination of them all.

so i made a bad choice.
it was a choice i had avoided making for three years.
it was a choice i struggled with often, during some times, and never, during others.
it was a choice i caved in to when i was left with nowhere, no one to turn to, when the emotions and chemicals were taking over.

i made a bad choice. but i did not make a mistake.
so now i will live with the consequences.
and tonight, i will sleep on my left side.