purging.

give me the drugs.
you don't have to know.
close your eyes and put them on the table.
you'll never know.
you don't have to know.
it's ok.
i'm not.
give me the drugs.
give them to me. now.



fifteen months.
silence.
repelling like water.
fifteen months.
holding my tongue.
suffering separately.
fifteen. empty. unnecessary.
come back to me.
we need our misery.
together.



desertion. run away.
distraction. you sleep with eyes open.
walk with eyes closed.
disruption. shaken.
america in crumbles.
solid ground is sinking.
disappointment. you are not who i
saw-thought-wanted-wished-hoped
you to be.
go back, leave me to mend the wounds
you've dug into deeper.



you hide.
you're hiding from me.
what. why. who.
i have no meaning.
you have none here.
tell me. tell me. dimela.
you lie to my face.
my back. my side.
hiding from something.
tell me.



give me the drugs.
they're all i want.
all i'll have.
all i'll do.
i won't breathe
think-move-speak
until i have them.
i can't breathe
think-move-speak
until i have them.
they're all i need.
i need them. now.
give them to me.