i wonder...

...a lot.
i wonder about the past.
i wonder about the present.
surprisingly, i don't really wonder about the future.

i was thinking about that this morning...
most people wonder about the future.
about who they'll fall in love with, who they'll marry, where they'll work, what their children will be like...
not me.
i suppose it's because i know that, no matter how much i wonder about it, it will happen.

so i waste my time wondering about things that will never happen.
things from the past.
it's more of a musing, i think.
it gives me something intellectual to stimulate my brain with.
it's not just pining; it's hypothesizing, it's analyzing, it's... intellectualizing?

hm.

on another note, i'd like to find a buddhist temple and go for a visit.
i would like to re-assert my zenist core and ground myself again.
not just would i like it. i need it.

and, on a final note, annoying freshman are annoying.